I've spent so many years dwelling on my life. Dwelling on mistakes. Situations. Past experiences. The same as everyone I have encountered many hurdles and overcome them the only problem is I seem to be jumping
some of the same hurdles over again. It's not that I don't learn from my mistakes because I do (at the time) but its as though I walk Into situations totally oblivious to the fact that I've been there before.
I've learn't that living with a mental health condition can potentially make you more vulnerable to life. I feel like I'm on on the back foot. I'm only speaking for myself but I feel like it's a fight every day to fit into societies norms. To feel valued and because I'm always over compensating I feel that makes me open to risky situations. That's just my experience. I'm aware that everyone is different.
What I've also learnt is that if these patterns keep presenting themselves that I have to try and make changes to myself to prevent them reoccurring, what am I missing? What are the red flags? What am I doing wrong? Not only can I work on the before I can also acknowledge the after- how did I respond to the situation? I've spent years dwelling, where has that got me? Feeling sorry for myself, defeatest. Or what I could do is use the pain as power. Fuel my drive. Which is exactly what I have started doing. Utilising my strengths and directing my energy into them. Not over thinking but doing. Every time I drop into a low vibration I tell myself that 'it's sink or swim' and that I have to stay focused.
'I Can Relate' has been a life saver for me and also my music . They are goals I can focus on. Einstein famously said 'to live a happy life assign it to goals not people or things' and that's what I'm doing.
But, I'm not ignorant to the fact that circumstances have alot to do with it. I'm In a positive place now with my mental health and physically. But Life really can give you a beating and I've been there and I was on a low frequency as result and to attack is so much harder. But we have to hold onto the possibilities and we have to hold onto hope even if we can't see a way out at the time
I feel like there were many lessons that I've learnt written about in this post. They are just my opinion I'm not a professional I'm just an individual speaking about my own experiences in life and with mental health.
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Thanks for reading!